1. The quality of being honest and having strong moral principles.
I've been thinking of writing this for a while, i don't have any specific plan or a list of things i want to cover, so i'm just going to go with it ..and hopefully remember some punctuation at some point too.
Lately i'm (very luckily) being offered paid opportunities nearly everyday. So it seems strange that bar the 2 AD's i've recently just uploaded to Instagram, i haven't done a paid post before that for 15 past posts - or over two weeks for those who don't speak Instagram. There's two ways of looking at this, opinion 1 being i should take every opportunity i get and rake in the cash or, opinion 2: i should be selective with what i put out there. I scroll down my instagram feed everyday now and see campaigns i've been offered carried out by other people, and i get a little prang to the stomach. The devil on my shoulder whispers "you should've taken that" and momentarily i get a fleeting notion that i'm not cut out for this, why can't i just push past the idea of promoting something to grab the cash? But shortly after that moment of madness i'm happy to report, i realise it's probably quite a good thing.
Don't get me wrong here (i was about to write don't get it twisted, but i'm not cool enough for that) i have no problem with people, especially women, making money off their own back. If you want to upload paid for adverts within every single instagram post you do then GO for it, especially if you do it well, but even if you don't and every one of them is a product selfie - who am i to tell you not to? My point is i'm not here for that; and the way i've been feeling was perfectly summed up by Lydia Millen-Gordon in the Take Fl1ght Podcast, when she said the words "You can't buy back integrity".
Am i making as much money as someone promoting 4 different deodorants every month? No. Do i feel slightly like i'm a failure when i turn down someone offering me 3x my usual rate to promote an app that i'd never actually use? Yep (for a moment anyway). I'm reminded though that my no nonsense attitude to paid for content reflects how i want my ~life~ as a blogger to be. I want to be here for the long run, for people to look at the campaigns i work on and think "w0w, how the hell did she get on that?", i want to be able to sit back look at what i promote, be proud and never run the risk of being known as the girl who changes her deodorant brand as often as her pants.
The cliches "quality over quantity" and "slow and steady wins the race" come into play here, sometimes i'm left feeling like i'm being left behind but to quote the ever so relevant meme, i'm - staying in my lane - and knowing what i'm doing now will pay off in the long run. Once you've sold out you can't go back; you can pay for the camera equipment, the editing programs and all the lovely clothes to take photos in - but integrity is yours for the keeping, and i'd take long term success over a quick fix any day.